In the cold light I stand still,
Emotionless
and lost,
I
am trying to remember
Who
I was.
I
am tired of giving myself,
To
all who don’t appreciate me.
I
am tired to blend in
Where
I clearly do not belong.
I
am tired to walk in anyone’s shoes,
I
am tired to look for justification
For
other’s actions
Just to find a better explanation.
I
like myself shut,
Unable
to feel the pain or joy
I
like myself shut,
Building
my walls up.
I
am tired of being someone’s support
When
all I need is to be left alone,
I
am tired of being someone’s right hand
When
no one stands behind me.
I
am tired of all the excuses,
I
am tired of all the lies.
I
am tired of being accused
That
I don’t understand.
…
In
the cold light I stand still,
Fortified
with huge fences,
I
will never let myself feel
Any
of the emotions.
I
have willingly turned into robot
To
preserve myself,
I
will be my only one
To
whom I bent a knee.
In
the cold light I vow to myself
To
never let my guard down
And
even if feel the need of love
Mine
to myself will be enough.
I
promise I will cherish myself
Like
I have never done before.
Here
in the cold light
I
let myself be reborn.
