The dawn is gone leaving me with
numerous thoughts.
Where should I start my new day
in the search of a new beginning?
How to keep the calmness of the silence
around me
When all I want is to scream drowned in fear?
How to conquer my fears when the
sadness has become my best friend?
How to start a new, I have no
idea, I am circling in the endless cycle
Of my own insecurities and unrest?
I don’t care how to survive; this
is not my day nor the one after.
…
I do remember what I have done to
you, but I do remember your faults too,
However, the trails of your punishment are getting weaker,
I am still under the influence of your charm.
How should I start my day – I am
still lost in the memories.
The night is still here – full blown
darkness, no starry sky.
I don’t care how to start this
new day if my pride will be torn apart
By the shadows of an old life, even
though I feel it as world from a far.
…
I really want to start my day
running in the lush green grass,
To scream freely, to scream and
to stop on the crossroad of the days passed
So that I can be able to see the
wrong turn I made though someone else’s eyes.
But I can’t to pretend to be different
– I am the dessert, harsh climate, cold nights,
The same feeling of nothingness
that pushes me to feel like a guest,
Just visiting my core and soul –
crushed, useless, as if my mind belongs to the emptiness
Of the dark shadows that roam my
damaged consciousness.
…
I won’s give up on myself, no
more, never again,
Yes, I am just like that – forgetful
of my misfortune,
I am trying to leave my mark.
Dear darkness, don’t try to look
for me, I am not your sanctuary.
I used to be the bright star of
the night’s sky until you engulfed me.
Now I am transparent shadow –
Ghost from the Eternity.
