I don’t need anything; I am so used to being just me.
Any interruption
I treat like a threat of my existence,
External
disturbance of unhealthy voices.
I don’t need
anything,
I’ve built
what I lacked with my own persistence.
Away from
foreign thoughts and comments,
It is my
way of coping with the chaos I grow up in.
…
Some see
it sad that the trust is broken, some even see me as damaged goods
And yet I
am here fighting every day to what I hold dear to my heart.
I don’t see
myself as a lonely princess waiting to be rescued.
In my
world I am the one who carries the deepest scars
Yet always
is regarded as the softest of them all.
But still
those close to me try to intervene and give advices
I don’t ask
for that – I only demand respect to my nature
I will
talk when I find it best – as I said million times before - I don’t need
anything.
Some of
them are so offended – here wo go with the Hero complex:
Let me
save you from yourself.
And when
this request is denied, this friendship no longer serves them -
The ego
boost declined.
Others present
themselves as victims triggering my willingness to help
And when
they got their validation, comfortably forget to call.
…
I don’t need
anything,
I am
what I had to become – harsh and blunt to the core.
Uncomfortable
conversations held in the middle of the night
As if
the darkness of the sky will hide the ugly truth revealed
Away from
curious glances – enemies presenting as friends.
I don’t need
anything,
I’ve cut
the ties that no longer serve me.
I am no
longer slave of my sweetness taken for granted,
I am not
here to be the calm sea of your stormy weather.
I simply
erase those existences from my life,
I am not
here to heal the wounds I did not inflict.
I don’t need
anything; I don’t want to be understood.
Every boundary
I set is met with silence,
Let them
call me Lady Cold - the thick ice cannot be broken by the timid steps above.
I don’t need
anything - I’ve burnt the shaky bridges,
I don’t need
those filthy hands touching my soul.
Like
a phoenix rising from the smoke and ashes
I don’t pretend
to be untouchable
Just claiming
what feels true to me – unwilling to bend to those
Who try
to make shrink into a little glimpse of their twisted illusion of who they need
me to be!
I don’t need
anything!
