Lost underneath the veil of darkness,
Drunk
from sorrow bottled up for ages inside me,
Fated in
loneliness,
Guilty
of losing what I cherished most.
I longed
for being someone else’s anchor in the stormy sea,
I longed
for being someone else’s fundament,
I longed
for being someone else’s morning or solace,
I longed
for being someone else’s sun in a cloudy day.
…
Yet the
dawn was never mine, the sunset is kissing the tired eyes
I scream
under the moonlight like a hurt wolf.
She
drives me crazy, calling silently my name,
She
forces me to give up my dreams and follow the pack instinct,
Compelling
me to turn into wild animal – unleashed.
…
Lost underneath
the veil of the darkness I am still drunk,
Eyes
lying me as if the morning will ever come,
Fight my
battles – yet alone,
I am so
wasted, unable to connect,
Fulfilling
foreign dreams in not for me
Even
though I wished to be drained from the rain of beloved laughter.
…
Lost underneath
the veil of the darkness I am insanely intoxicated,
Still
unable to sober up.
But it’s
not the alcohol circulating in my blood stream like an oil in the old machine,
It’s the
guilt eating me alive, like a ghost my mistakes haunt me,
Wrong
decisions made when I was young.
My
intoxication took control and buried me beneath the locked emotions,
My
consciousness refuses to acknowledge the growth I’ve had – eternal punishment.
…
Lost underneath
the veil of the darkness I am ultimately juiced,
A
drunkhead with no hopes and dreams,
The
liquid courage now poisoned me - weakness, unforgiven sins.
I refuse
to become clear-headed, this world was never meant to me,
I prefer
to dim my light, be invisible, an outcast, cold-hearted.
And yet
the numbness starts fade away, I am not ready to face myself -
I just need another glass.
