Same old story,
endlessly repeating predicament...
Every night I crave you like a dangerous drug,
I am obsessed with the deepness of your voice.
I have embedded the bitter-sweet scent of you into my
soft pillow,
I have locked the emotions of us away, let me have a
taste of your poisonous body.
The burning sensation of your touch drives me insane,
I am no longer in control.
I am weak like a junkie getting its fix, but don’t
overstay - my cravings have no end.
You are nothing more than a cheap dose of pleasure-
dealer of night time gratification;
You are not invited for a night stay, you have two
hours,
Then I expect you to walk away of this room filled
with sinner’s fragrance - my ultimate descent.
…
Don’t ask me if I am afraid to fall victim into the
lover’s romance – you are nothing but a breathing toy.
Don’t ask me if I am afraid you might disappoint me if
I allow your presence longer than a day – don’t get too cocky – you are just a
man for sin not a company for life.
Don’t ask me if I am going to regret the coldness my
actions – my dear doll for pleasure, I treat you like you have no soul, less
the human.
You have one task at hand, get the job done and leave
me alone.
…
Another night full of cravings, another quick dose of
minimal contentedness.
I can see the judgement in your eyes and posture.
I am a heartless monster, yet I have a beautiful
disguise.
Another night full of cravings, another hour spent in
oblivion,
Don’t come again, not even an inch closer – you’re my
last chance for salvation
And yet my possible upcoming damnation....
I am a dealer of moments, nothing
permanent
And if you insist on staying you
will lose the privileges of getting all the special treats.
I am an innocent monstrosity
hidden in a plain side,
I have my own agenda and it's
called "I do whatever I want"!!!
